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Clickity Clack– The Roller Coaster

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“Yes, cancer is a roller coaster, and it seems that when you’re not at the highest or the lowest point, you’re in rapid transit either up or down.


I’m still waiting for my life to “even out,” but frankly, I’m not sure it ever will.”

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My life “Roller Coaster” is still in full swing… and I find myself hanging on. The Swing for a Cure event this past weekend in San Francisco was terrific. The UCSF Academy of Art was dressed in gold jerseys with gold ribbons on the back, and they raised money for University of San Francisco Children’s Hospital. The field was located in a beautiful, green valley, and the day was much warmer than the usual chilly, blustery San Francisco days.

Before the game began, I shared the honor of throwing out the first pitch with Sy—the 8 year-old boy I told you about. I was thankful he was able to come as he had finished his first round of chemo just a couple of days before. I understand Sy has a very tough battle ahead of him, so I will continue to ask for your prayer support. His Aunt Rachel, the awesome softball coach, has formed the group Sy’s Storm Troopers to walk in the San Francisco CureSearch Walk on May 14th. If you live in the Bay Area… please consider joining with Sy to raise money for pediatric cancer research.

Just in case you are wondering if I threw out the ball with complete “softball form,” I will stop that wondering right now. Since I grew up with two brothers who played baseball—in a family who loves baseball—I wound up and announced I would be throwing it “baseball style.”

It was a strike =)

When the double-header ended, Mom and I aimed toward Sacramento where we spent the night with my brother, Nicholas. Can I please interrupt my childhood cancer awareness- raising to shout out loud how much I love my brother Nicholas and my brother, Dean???????????? Whew!!!!!!!!!! I really do love them—so much!

And yesterday—yesterday– I still am not quite processing this…



Like I tried to explain at the beginning of this post, cancer is a Roller Coaster!

Without love, we would end up crumpled.

But with it, there is hope that the rattling car struggling uphill for miles with no end in sight will reach the summit.

Yikes! Then we need to hang on for the wild ride ahead!

Loving Anais Medina:)




Life is Tender

Grace: A Child's Intimate Journey Through Cancer and Recovery

There are days in life where there is nothing I can think of but life. Today is one of those days. Maybe it was the news today that Tulsa’s Wilson Holloway passed away from Hodgkin lymphoma. Maybe it’s because I have been thinking of Breanna’s family all week-long and about her memorial service coming up this Saturday. Maybe it’s all of this combined with rain that has settled me into a reflective mode.

Maybe it’s because life is tender.

Yes. It is because life is tender.

Tenderness is something I love in life.

I find tenderness when someone looks at me with love in their eyes and tenderness in the soft voice of a friend. I love the tenderness of warm hugs and the tenderness of genuine smiles.

When I look at the photographed faces and into the hearts and spirits of the childhood cancer warriors I have posted, I see tenderness like no other tenderness here on Earth. There is a peace– a calming gentleness– that comes straight from their souls to fill mine. How they are able to mask the pain, the fear, and the helplessness with their angelic expressions is a miracle in itself.

I can’t help but believe that these little warriors already have the life wisdom to see life through the Great Zoom Out Button. They use this perspective to bring joy and meaning to those around them who can only sit back and shake their heads in amazement. They teach us that life is way too short to bicker, quarrel, or be nasty in any way.

They teach us we have a heart for a purpose.

Please be tender… just as our dearly loved warriors are teaching us by their example.

Please pray for Anais Medina

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Get “The Baby” Out of the Car!

Grace: A Child's Intimate Journey Through Cancer and Recovery

What an incredibly beautiful day it is here! The birds are singing, and the sun is shining warmly upon me. (No offense to those who are buried in snow—I would actually enjoy meeting snow sometime!) I am not only basking in the sun, but I am basking in gratitude for the love in my life. I am as grateful for the love I have to give as I am grateful for the love I receive.

Can I tell you how grateful I am for your love?

It feels like the presence of gratitude multiplies love inside me—exponentially.

Gratitude drives me to look outside myself to find others in need. I know this sounds weird, but I am grateful for gratitude!

I think gratitude grows rotten and ferments inside us unless it gets “baked” into something that will help someone else. When we express gratitude in kindness and love for others, it bakes a Big Batch of Love.

Those who know me know exactly where I am going…

I see a HUGE need. Tomorrow, 46 children in the United States will be diagnosed with cancer. Tomorrow, 7 children in the United States will die from cancer. There has not been a single drug approved to treat pediatric cancer in 20 years. Pharmaceutical companies contribute 50% of funding for adult cancer research, and virtually nothing for children’s cancers.

Does this sound right to you?

It does not smell like something is baking at all. It smells to me like something is fermenting.

The more I learn about what is happening (more like what is not happening,) the more I know I must express my gratitude for my life by speaking out to try to help children who have been forgotten. It’s like when a baby gets left in a car on a hot day with many people around. Everyone thinks everyone else is tending to the baby. Meanwhile, the baby is ignored and left to die.

Please don’t think someone else is taking care of this; don’t wait for someone else to “Get the Baby Out of the Car.” There is a lot of work to be done. Become a worker bee to stop childhood cancer.

“See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels always see the face of my Father who is in heaven.”
(Matthew 18:10 ESV)

Please keep Anais Medina in your prayers for no fever and a great Disney trip.

Please continue your messages of support to CristaOrtz@gmail.com

Grace: A Child’s Intimate Journey Through Cancer and Recovery

Teach us, Anais! The spirit of a child with cancer!



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